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Be careful of that Runner’s High

I didn’t send the letter just yet, I still have to think more about it. I’m worried that I’m doing it out of my own self interest and would end up not being right for either of us. I think deep down I’m worried that she’s not thinking about me and I’m trying to prompt her to think about me again. This would be a pretty selfish thing to do. Sometimes if you truly love something you just have to let it go.

I went for a killer run yesterday and told myself I was going to send it after thinking I wasn’t going to all day. You got to be careful of that. If you put a cup of coffee in your system and then go for a 7 mile run on a gorgeous day you have to remember your brain is going through a serotonin circus. This could lead you to do something you regret once that circus leaves town. For instance, you could make a website where you tell the internet your deepest thoughts and secrets. God forbid.

I find that I have to walk that fine line between Cool and Cringe to pursue the things I really value. I have to push that boundary sometimes and stumble into the Cringe territory to find that comfort zone. Laugh about it when you fuck up and do some cringe ass shit. It’s funny. Self aware is one of the best character traits a person can have. I’m constantly working on it.

I signed up for a half marathon this past Sunday. The race is on October 4th and my little brother is going to do it with me. I’m really excited for that. I think I can run a really good time. Yesterday I ran 7 miles at 7:33 pace and it was relatively easy. I definitely could have ran a little faster. After I finished running yesterday I convinced myself that I’ll be able to dunk a basketball if I continue on this training regimen. I’m white, about 5′ 8″, and cannot touch the rim. Needless to say that serotonin circus was REAL yesterday.

Be careful of that Runner’s High