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Sharing

Someday I’d like to share this blog. It’s really helped me get through some very difficult things. I’m not read though. Maybe when I hit 100 posts I’ll go ahead and share it with more people. I’ve written some very personal things though so I have to be careful about that.

I’ve been thinking more about my post yesterday. It sounded like I really went after my one buddy who sparked my stream of consciousness but it really wasn’t targeted at him. The more I think about it the more I realize I was really just talking to myself. The things you that you’re the most sensitive about it are qualities that you’re trying to improve in yourself. I’ve thought about those things quite a lot and once shared the same feelings he had.

The kid who I’m talking about is a really good dude. He’s a ball of energy and very passionate. He’s intelligent and seems like he reads a good amount. He does get over his skis sometimes. He starts pontificating on things that he doesn’t know much about. I do it too. When I talk to him I feel like I’m talking to a more energetic and younger version of myself. I’m not much older than him. Less than a year I believe, but for some reason I feel wise beyond my years. Maybe it was those panic attacks that I had.

I do feel like I’m in a good place now. I’ve been working out a lot and I’m getting stronger. Just started added protein to my smoothie at the end of the day and it’s been messing with my stomach a little. I’m trying out different things to see if I can keep it in my diet because I can tell it’s helping my strength but my stomach can definitely feel it. Onward fellas.